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Taste of Sin
Title: I'm a Bitch Vampire. Yay....
Chapter: Chapter 4
Pairing: Jensen/Jared, J2 AU
Rating: NC-17
Wordcount: 4,000 ish (WIP)
Warning: Vampirism. Bloodplay. Slavery. Dominance. Chad Michael Murray.
Disclaimer: The boys are not mine. This did not happen. And if it did, I wasn't invited.

Summary: Vampire movies? Full of shit. That's what Jared learns when he's forcibly turned and caged, set to be sold into vampire slavery. Turns out, the big bad variety of vampires only feed from other vampires. And little bitch vampires like him? They're sold as walking blood bags and pets. Freshly turned and in the home of his owner, Jared struggles to understand his new nature and his new master. Stockholm Syndrome, anyone?

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Taste of Sin
Title: I'm a Bitch Vampire. Yay....
Chapter: Chapter 3
Pairing: Jensen/Jared, J2 AU
Rating: NC-17 (For future chapters. This one is R.)
Wordcount: 4,000 ish (WIP)
Warning: Vampirism. Bloodplay. Slavery. Chad Michael Murray.
Disclaimer: The boys are not mine. This did not happen. And if it did, I wasn't invited.

Summary: Vampire movies? Full of shit. That's what Jared learns when he's forcibly turned and caged, set to be sold into vampire slavery. Turns out, the big bad variety of vampires only feed from other vampires. And little bitch vampires like him? They're sold as walking blood bags and pets. Freshly turned and in the home of his owner, Jared struggles to understand his new nature and his new master. Stockholm Syndrome, anyone?

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24th-May-2015 08:28 am - Fic: I'm a Bitch Vampire. Yay.... (2)
Taste of Sin
Title: I'm a Bitch Vampire. Yay....
Chapter: Chapter 2
Pairing: Jensen/Jared, J2 AU
Rating: NC-17 (For future chapters. This one is R.)
Wordcount: 4,000 ish (WIP)
Warning: Vampirism. Bloodplay. Slavery. Chad Michael Murray.
Disclaimer: The boys are not mine. This did not happen. And if it did, I wasn't invited.

Summary: Vampire movies? Full of shit. That's what Jared learns when he's forcibly turned and caged, set to be sold into vampire slavery. Turns out, the big bad variety of vampires only feed from other vampires. And little bitch vampires like him? They're sold as walking blood bags and pets. Freshly turned and in the home of his owner, Jared struggles to understand his new nature and his new master. Stockholm Syndrome, anyone?

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23rd-May-2015 04:57 am - Fic: I'm a Bitch Vampire. Yay....
Taste of Sin
Title: I'm a Bitch Vampire. Yay....
Chapter: Chapter 1
Pairing: Jensen/Jared, J2 AU
Rating: NC-17 (For future chapters. This one is R.)
Wordcount: 4,000 ish (WIP)
Warning: Vampirism. Bloodplay. Slavery. Chad Michael Murray.
Disclaimer: The boys are not mine. This did not happen. And if it did, I wasn't invited.

Summary: Vampire movies? Full of shit. That's what Jared learns when he's forcibly turned and caged, set to be sold into vampire slavery. Turns out, the big bad variety of vampires only feed from other vampires. And little bitch vampires like him? They're sold as walking blood bags and pets. Freshly turned and in the home of his owner, Jared struggles to understand his new nature and his new master. Stockholm Syndrome, anyone?

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1st-Aug-2009 04:29 am - Check In
qaf: butt sex?
I've been neglecting this journal an awfully lot. Especially considering that I finally have some good news. It's a little bizarre.

I'm going back to college! Seriously, though, it's done. I've been accepted and the financial aid went through and I have a schedule and I just went for orientation and ... eek, you know? I'm so excited.

I'm living on campus. At first I was very worried about being the oldest person there, but I've decided that I don't give a shit. At orientation I met so many interesting people and it seems like my fidgety, defensive personality is just about gone. I'm actually interested in people for what they know and who they are. It doesn't even seem like I'm shy anymore. Most likely, that's a side effect of working at Blair. It was a death trap of self-hatred and brain numbing boredom, but through my smoke breaks and lunch breaks I learned how to simply walk into a crowd of people and find room for myself. At lunch I frequently got something out of the vending machine and then spotted a stranger looking bored and asked if I could join them. Granted, most people probably learned how to interact with other people in the third grade, but I'll take what I can get.

I'm majoring in English with a concentration in writing. Am I completely positive that I'll stay with it forever? Not entirely. I love writing quite a bit but I have other passions as well. The nice part is that I'm not really that worried about it. As long as I keep striving like I have been, I more or less trust myself to get somewhere good. (Which is a bit of a breakthrough.)

Home still sucks. My father took me to orientation and then didn't bother picking up his phone or showing up when he said he would to pick me up. I sat there for three and a half hours waiting. But whatever. I'm almost out of here.

I've been really heavy into philosophy and psychology lately as well. I love writing for the themes. I've become some sort of ... well, some person that is way too in their head and talks themselves in circles trying to gain insight into things that may not have any answers. Whatever the word is that you'd tag onto that situation, that's what I am. My head's tied into ribbons but I love it.

So, what's everyone else been up to? What are you into? What are your goals, fears, and insecurities? lol. But seriously, I'm interested. Self analyze is interesting. :D
14th-Nov-2008 02:25 pm(no subject)
Holy Crap Batman
I'm thrilled that Supernatural is getting so much news lately. I think they've had some sort of feature in TV Guide just about every week. It's pretty exciting, and long overdue.

I can't say I understand exactly why it's happening now. Maybe it had something to do with Jensen's movie. Or ... maybe it was just time.

I mean, the show has been good this season. It's almost a throwback to season one. There's a definitely sense of fun, which I do enjoy. There are elements of their crackier episodes in just about every episode. I mean, the talking Teddy? That was both crack on a stick and absolutely brilliant. Truthfully, it mirrors the seventh season of Buffy a little bit. Dean's head is so dark and there's so much shit going down that they're purposefully creating light episodes and then implanting the angst into them in order to keep it from turning too painful to watch. Personally, I could go for just a little more angst on Dean's part, but that's just my personal kick. Also, the season is young and I'm sure everything is going to come out in its due time.

Or, maybe the whole god situation is a new theme that more people can get behind. I'm not completely sure. I mean, the episodes have been good. The acting has been good. (With a few exceptions, but hey.) But I still think that the second season was better.

Though, I come back to the talking Teddy ... because that was just brilliant. I really am impressed with the writing. They manage to create themes each week and work them into the script in a way that's both insightful and hilarious. I mean, on the surface that episode was just a funny, random little outing. But it ties incredibly well into Dean's mind frame and the issues that he's going through.

What's the point of life? Can't get things just by wishing for them. Have to work and work and work, and then die, come back, and work some god damn more. And learning that Sam wouldn't wish to go back to Jess, but would rather wish for Lilith's head on a plate? ... That's a nice insight into Sam's character.

Anyway, it's a good season. And it's about damn time that Supernatural got a little more recognition.
26th-Oct-2008 05:54 pm(no subject)
Dean Sexy
Okay, it's time for an update.

Real Life: (I'll make this quick so you guys don't have to skim. lol.) I got a new job. It pays better and doesn't make me want to kill myself as much as working at the hotel did. I just take phone orders all day. Not exactly glamorous, but it's fine. Lots of old people though. Old, old, old people. They're sort of depressing because they weren't always like that, you know? But mostly it's fine.

Fandom:

Mostly, I'm liking the new season. Not as good as season 2, but better than season 3. Also, the ratings are up, which is just short of amazing. TV Guide did a whole two page spread about the show. Jensen was mentioned on a list about people who weren't nominated for an emmy but should have been. So, yay for them.

The article also said that Supernatural fans are "notoriously difficult on new characters." lol. I think that could have been narrowed down to just the female characters, and we all know why that is. But I'm liking the new charries this season. Especially the angel. He's a good actor, and he and Jensen work off each other well. He also gets sparkly lines which I enjoy.

The whole god thing threw me just a bit when I first saw it. I mean, I'm not really a religious person. (As the slash would hint at.) But this isn't religion being shoved down our throats. It's an exploration of beliefs and using religion as a mythical plot device. So, I'm fine with it. It's working. Though, it's still a little weird how much easier I can buy into demons, vampires, and ghosts than I can buy into god.

Their relationship is definitely getting a little strained. But it always has been and probably always will be. I'm hoping that it doesn't get any worse. I want the boys to grow together, not apart, but we'll see.

I was a big fan of the fear episode. I mean, I was half expecting it to be serious fear brought to us by the angst filled Jensen Ackles, and it wasn't exactly that, but his little out burst was priceless. And the clip at the end? hehe. He's such a dork. But I loved his expression when he was done. He looked half embarrassed, half amused, and half proud of himself. Basically, he's adorable.

As for the new Ruby .... eh. I know a lot of people weren't a big fan of the old one, but I liked her better. This new girl isn't as dramatic. I don't feel any fire from her. But that could just be me.

Now, I'm off to search for some good fanfic. It's been a while since I stalked the newsletter. If anyone has anything shinny ... you know I'd love a link.

And seriously, how has everyone been doing? I know, I know, if I was a better person I'd go and read everyone's journal right now rather than search for fanfic, but ... well, I guess I'm not. That'll be next weekend.
21st-Jul-2008 10:53 am - Kisses
QAF: Stoned
Oh my god, you guys. Last night was my last night at the Holiday Inn. I'm so thrilled to be out of that place. But there's more!

I wrote before how it was really unfair that I met someone that I actually liked in this town, finally, right before I quit my job. Well, we still had my last two weeks to get to know each other. And we became friends, and last night we kissed.

lol. This is probably an everyday event for people who ... are not me. But for people who are me, a guy going out of his way to flirt with me for two weeks when we totally have a ton in common and kind of understand each other to a freaky degree and then for said guy to actually kiss me ... several times, and in a ... "I want you" way ... well, it's pretty much a once in a blue moon thing.

So, I had to share. Nothing will probably come out of it, but I don't even care. It was totally the best way to spend my last day at that sucktastic job.

*smiles*
7th-Jul-2008 05:51 pm - Happy Birthday to Me!
Sam Grin
So, it's my Birthday. Last year I did a picscam to celebrate. Maybe I'll put together a short fic or something later. But, yeah, my birthday.

As a Birthday present to me, I put in my two weeks at my horrible job. Which, yay! I don't have a new job yet, but I will. Anything would be better than that place. It was seriously time.

And, in the interesting - dare I say cruel - way of the universe, I put in my two weeks the same week that I met a potential friend at the hotel. Worked there a year and a half ... haven't clicked with a single co-worker. Decide I'm going to quit and I run across the most interesting, complex, shocking like me guy I'll probably ever meet.

But what are you going to do? I know I made the right decision.

Anyway, in two weeks I'll never have to step foot inside that hotel again and good god, that just fills me with this peaceful feeling like you can't imagine. Like living in the country, sitting on the back porch, drinking a beer with nothing but crickets and peepers to distract from the silence. Leaving this job makes me feel like that. So ... I can't be sorry.
6th-Jul-2008 07:40 pm - Big Ole Post
People Are Crazy
Okay, I'm stepping out of fandom for this post. It's all about me and my views on life. Not sure anyone will even be remotely interested, but I feel so much better after writing this.


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5th-Jul-2008 08:13 pm - Inspire Me! ... Please?
Easily Amused
Okay, I know that this isn't exactly the offer of a lifetime, but I'm bored as hell and pretty much stalled on all my longer, "serious" stories.

So, I'd freaken LOVE a prompt or two.

Everyone has kinks, right? Whether they're sexual or not, they're still kinks ... in a loose sense of the word. Whatever. If you want a sam/dean, first time, hypothermia is for porn, with handcuffs and hickey kink? ... I could probably work that out. Jensen/Jared, au, competing against each other in a chess tournament, wire-rimmed glasses and awkward, slightly geeky fumbling in a supply closet? ... Sure!

Wing!fic, Bodyswap, Powers are for Porn, Rimming, Public Sex, John-Finds-Out!, Curse!Pollen!Succubus!Fangirlswithagun!made-them-do-it!

Abso-freakinglutely anything you want. Domestic bliss. Angst. Crack. Smut. Schmoop. - j2, wincest, j2/wincest crossover. Whatever.

Er, no Daddy!cest, non-con, death fic, necrophilia, or yak-fucking of any kind. But seriously, other than that - and a few yucky things that I can't imagine anyone would actual request - I'm completely open.

And hell, if anyone is as bored as I am, I'd be pretty cool to challenge someone back and see what they come up with! But that's not necessary. Just ... tell me what you want and I'll give it a go.

Huh? Yeah, you know you want to!
21st-Jun-2008 05:47 am(no subject)
Holy Crap Batman
I need to write a j2 version of Office Space!!!

Jensen as the guy who hates his job. Jared as the waiter he's been mooning over. Chris the construction worker who lives next to Jensen.

Everyone will get their perfect role and it will be glorious!
19th-Jun-2008 02:48 am - Fic: You handcuffed me to the bed?
Dean Sexy
Title: You handcuffed me to the bed?
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Wordcount: 2,200 ish
Warning: Slight dub-con at first. Handcuffs.
Disclaimer: The boys are not mine. This did not happen. And if it did, I wasn't invited.

Summary: Jared is completely lovesick and pissed that Jensen doesn't remember their night together. Obviously, Jared needs to refresh his memory.

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18th-Jun-2008 04:27 pm - Bloody Valentine
Rock On
So, My Bloody Valentine is being shot in Western Pennsylvania. Not to put too fine a point on it, but I'm in Western Pennsylvania! So, that daydream I have about looking up from my boring ass job at the only decent hotel in my small town in Western Pennsylvania and seeing someone interesting standing across from me ... it just got slightly more likely.

I mean, still completely delusional, but I did mention just how boring my job is right?

So, yeah. Now when Jared visits Jensen and they go find a hotel room ... I will be the tongue tied fangirl on the other side of the counter, grinning like an idiot and asking, "Queen or two doubles?"

Hehe. Right. Delusional. I know. But wouldn't that make an awesome update? I think it would.
Easily Amused
As promised, this is my first j2 au rec list. It's got a few well known stories thrown in, but a lot of them are good reads that most people might not have heard of. I know that I read enough j2 au that going through the normal rec lists sounds something like this: read it, read it, read it, not going to read it and I don't care how many people rec it, read it, read it ... you get my drift.

So, hopefully even the avid reader will see something that they haven't read yet. If you've read them all ... well, I tried.

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16th-Jun-2008 11:21 am(no subject)
Supernatural Lingo
It's kinda hard to know what to write after you've been gone for a while. There's fandom stuff.

I saw that Jared and Sandy broke up. The poor guy looked pretty crushed about it. I think it's proof that J2 really does destroy the soul that I immediately thought: So get Jensen plastered and make your move already. But, I mean, seriously, it's both horrible because of how sad he looks and also not so vaguely reminiscent of half the J2 fics I've read. Still, poor guy.

When he hooks up with another girl we're all going to be crushed.

Also, the big bangs are out. Well, they're trickling out. I have to tell you, as far as signs go, the fact that I was more excited for Big Bangs than I was for Christmas or my Birthday last year is probably pretty telling. Still, slightly pathetic or no, I'm having a freaken fantastic time. Good J2 AU are hard to find, and I was starting to worry that I'd pretty much tapped the internet.

But here they are, just in time. New, beautiful stories just about every day. It's marvelous.

I'm not reading as much wincest as I used to. Not that I've suddenly decided it's wrong or anything. I mean, look who you're talking to here. I'm just not that interested in the fic that the show's direction is producing. Of course, I thought the same thing about the five hundred thousand "Save Dean's Soul" stories too, and I ended up reading and liking quite a few of those. So, I guess we'll see. But for now, while the internet is flooded with happy J2 goodness ... Dean/Sam has kinda taken a backseat to Jensen/Jared.

Because I really, really love a good J2 AU. It's an endless supply of reading material, all full of characters that I know and love. And they're getting inventive. Or, you know, not. Some are inventive and brilliant and some are just remakes of movies that we loved, or didn't, and they're brilliant too. It's basically just good all the way around.

lol. As if I need to convince most of you guys.

I think I'll actually put together a rec list here pretty soon. I've been a bookmarking fiend, so I have a lot to share. And I've got about 18k or so of a J2 AU written. It's about the boys in rehab. Not exactly happy, but not as dull and grey as it sounds either. Kinda surprisingly schmoopy, actually.

And there's real life stuff, but none of that is anywhere near as entertaining as fandom ... or as easy. I think I'm basically going through another mid-life crisis. This is like the third one. I'm 23 now. Usually, I'm pretty sure people spread them out a little better.

... Who knows.

So, basically, that's what I've been up to. I'm really going to make an effort to write in this thing a lot more. For gods sake, it's a journal. All I have to do is talk about myself and the things that amuse me. And that really shouldn't be a problem. I'm in my head constantly.
7th-May-2008 07:30 pm(no subject)
Easily Amused
How to tell that you've a.) got no life and b.) are completely obsessed with J2 Au:

You set up a Hearts tournament on your computer and name all the other players after J2 characters.



Chad keeps winning. I think the fucker is cheating though, so ...
1st-May-2008 09:48 am - The song of Dean
Holy Crap Batman
Oh guys. I just heard Dean's Song. This is so dorky, I know, but I have to share. Because it's just perfect. Someone needs to do a brilliant video to this IMMEDIATELY! And if it's already been done, Link Me!


Dean's Song

I Won't Back Down
Performed by Pearl Jam



Well I wont back down, no I wont back down
You can stand me up at the gates of hell
But I wont back down

Gonna stand my ground, wont be turned around
And Ill keep this world from draggin me down
Gonna stand my ground and I wont back down

Hey baby, there aint no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I wont back down.

Well I know whats right, I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin me around
But Ill stand my ground and I wont back down

Hey baby there aint no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I wont back down
No, I wont back down